Story about Novika's

This is my first story after 7 years. I dont know why, but today I feel to write again here.  This feeling has disturbed my heart and mind for 3 months. I mad, I sad, I dissapointed, I cry till I can't cry anymore.  About someone who has break my deepest heart. I don't want to hate him, but I have no reason to not to do. Nowdays, I don't want to tell you guys how much he means to me and what does he did till I don't even want to call his name again. He was suceeded to make me afraid for loving someone, trust to someone, and also making me worry about "is there any good people here?". I think I can write from A to Z right now, but still I can't. I can't much write, too many words in my brain which I can't to describe. In last, I'll try to forgive myself, to forgive you. If you see my article here, please do never to come to my life again, with everything reason and anything happen in the future. Thank you,